just be happy.

i love

2008-03-09T06:37:22Z

so many things in my life. but mostly i love logan & chloe. theyre my rocks.
♥

i have...

2008-02-27T06:00:03Z

the most beautifulest little girl in all the world.
be jealous. please.
& i might have an amazing job. i would love to work at the day care but 8 bucks an hour along with a 1099 isnt what im looking for. i feel bad tho. anyways, logan needs to either find a fulltime job, or a job at nights so he can watch chloe during the day. yep. i cant believe this is my life now. & i wouldnt have it any other way.
ps. new photos of chloe are up on my space. some like these:

i just love her. :] & boo.

♥

amazing

2007-10-25T06:37:13Z

my little girl is beautiful!
she has the chubbiest cheeks.
i love her already.

she better get my nose.
♥.

OK

2007-10-19T02:45:11Z

so we made an appointment for the 4D ultra sound.
wednesday october 24th @ 4:30 pm we will see our little girl.
[again]
hehe.

im excited.
i will be 32 weeks by then.
wow.

i meet my new OB on tuesday.
hmmm.

& i finally got an appointment book/calender thingy
from target. its cute. i feel professional. hehe.

im cute.
& boos @ work now.

so im gonna listen to my ipod, or maybe watch c.i.
hmmmmm

the beat goes on
sorry, sonny&cher just came on.

i love shufle.

todays my parents 21st wedding anniversary.
me & logan got them a cute card, a xmas mat, i put 15 bucks in my moms tank, & we got them this LOVE LAUGH LIVE sign from target. they loved it.

the rooms painted!!!!!!!
now the base boards & floor. then were moving in. woop woop.
be jealous.

logans gpa is buying us floating shelves & were switching beds asap.

i still need to make our headboard.

hehe.

okay well, gimme a survey to do.
OH i need some overside shades, STAT.
okay peace.

AHH

2007-10-15T02:17:11Z

k so the baby shower was yesterday.
& it was a big success, we got mostly everything we wanted/needed.
[minus a glider] but oh well. Oh & i wanna personally thank jayme for comming extra early & helping my mom & aunt decorate. in her heels & all. THANK YOU!!!!!!!! ohhh & sorry to everyone that the gifts took an hour & a half to open. so we couldnt play all the games my mom put together. hehe. oh well. it was still fun. i think it was very nice of everyone [who cared] to show up & stay. The presents were extra, honestly. So today my parents asked me if izzy & kacie need an entertainment center thingy, i ask them, & they say yes. theyll take anything we have. [for their new apartment] so we end up loading my dads truck up with EVERYTHING thats been in our back patio for months & brough it over to their new place. its very nice. & roomy. im jealous. hehe. but one day. Basically having the baby shower realize how much i miss hanging out with people that i care about & who care about me back. so i apologize to those who feel neglected, or not wanted by me. cause im gonna hang out more. ill do my best to do that. okay , well now that i sorted all the gifts in to catergories, im waiting for my mom to get home from shopping to go thru it all to see what all chloe got. shes so lucky. oh & my dad is the best. he got me my diaper bag. amy coe, soooo cute!!!!! okay well. we go to the new OBGYN tomorrow. that indian asshole i went to in the beginging. ugh. well see. & im sure ive gained weight. but im not gonna stress anymore, im doing my best. okay? ok. :]

WOO!

2007-10-12T02:10:46Z

so i got the job with VECTOR marketing.
im pretty stoked. training is 10-18 thru the 20th, so i have time to find appropraite attire. hehe. but yeah, 16 bucks per appointment isnt all that bad. ill just have to keep myself honest & busy. so im looking forward to getting myself an appointment book with a calender. lol. where do find one of those things? now ill have to figure out the $145.46 deposit for the sample kit somehow. hmmmm, i dont know. & i would hate to have to pull up to clients houses in my crappy cavilear. maybe grandma will lemme use her car. maybe not. most likely not. grrr. oh well. okay well im hungry now, so ttyl.

lamaz.

2007-10-10T18:29:33Z

lamaz class was fun last night.
we met some people & learned what a fundus was. hehe.
i cant wait to learn more! & to be prepared for when she arrives.
& of course i had the "i had my baby" dream last night. it was funny! haha.
ohhh man.

doo dah.

2007-10-09T16:23:56Z

so got myself a new layout, well see how long it lasts.
anyways, im about to go start some laundry & wake boo up. so ttyl.

hehe.

blah.

2007-10-08T20:12:27Z

ello.
im lj stupid.
blah le dah.
ohh my time to clean.

ps. im 30 weeks today. ohhh my.

shh_biitch @ 2007-10-06T17:58:00

2007-10-07T01:02:12Z

im twenty.
its weird.
but whatev.
anyways, my nails are all chipped now, grrr.
& buffalo exchange hardly took anything. grrrr to them.
but other than that, being 7 months prego isnt that bad right now.
still the heat is a problem, but im dealing. & im attempting to eat better as well.
its tough tho. youd be suprised! anyhoos, im off to eat my sugar free pudding & watch the law&order:ci marathon till booboo gets off work. fun!!!!! ps. my life is most likely better than yours right now. duh.
♥

shh_biitch @ 2007-08-25T22:35:00

2007-08-26T05:43:24Z

okay, so basically i have gestational diabetes, which is a pregnant diabetes & itll go away once shes born! which is the good thing, but thats 3 months away & now i cant have anything with sugar in it & i have to check my blood sugar 3 times a day, & i have a kind of track mark now, its fancy. blah. we have to ask the dr about the morning time, cause they seem alittle high. but whatev. im pregnant, & i wont eat that much sugar anymore, ok ok i get it. blah. anyways. i love my boo, hes my everything. & my family too. i want some lasagna right now. like no joke! my belly is getting soooo big! its funny. not really. but my mom got me some really cute tops from ross, yes ross, 6 bucks each, which is a bargin if i do say so myself. -- we moved the office stuff from the office in to the dining room, & jakes stuff is in the process of moving his stuff from his room into the old office in the garage. then were gonna start painting his old room, which will be my room, then do my old room which will be the babys room! i cant wait till shes here, honestly im excited now. oh i have a job interview for some part time receptionist job thingy in newport on tuesday @ 10:30 in the am. so wish me luck on that. & boo has his job interview on monday @ 9 in the am. so wish him luck as well. okay well im hot in my clothes im wearing, time to get comfy. & figure out something to eat. peace.
♥

!!!

2007-08-14T19:41:55Z

so.
sunday august 12, 2007 was my

ONE YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!

shh_biitch @ 2007-05-15T16:00:00

2007-05-15T23:02:42Z

so im pregnant. oh ya, i told you all. & i guess my boobs are big now. ugh. & im irrated all the time, so yea. ha. k bye.
♥

shh_biitch @ 2007-05-04T15:59:00

2007-05-04T23:01:19Z

fuck myspace.
lost my password.
now i cant even make a new account.
GRRR.
oh & the boyfriends being unsensitive.
or maybe im just overly.
pregnancy, its real man.
♥

shh_biitch @ 2007-04-23T14:41:00

2007-04-23T21:42:07Z

im pregnant.

my six mon ths is TODAYY!

2007-02-13T04:53:54Z

soo.
life thus far;
im now a brunette.
got my nails did.
i have a boyfriend.
i still have a job.
my parents love me.
im helping a friend, even tho she hates me for it.
my best friends friend is chill.
i miss jacs.
were remodeling the bathroom.
robbies back!.
i could be in a sushi eating contest.
weed is good.
oh & some certain people, i just dont need right now.
:]
♥

cameras & lips.

2007-01-11T19:26:27Z

so ive decided that i wouldnt mind being a photographer. i think i take pretty good photos of things.
& people.

well this week has consisted of the following:
sushi.
making out.
movies.
dinner.
jayme.
family.
work.
work.
being sick.
cuddling.
drunkeness.
weed.
shuffle.
music.
cussing.
yelling.
driging.
scrachers.
fighting.
making up.
coughing.
a carton.
living life.

god, why is my life so amazing lately? its wonderful. i know why. cause im no longer using speed, & so what if i smoke a lil ganja & drink, im no longer a tweaker. 6 months in feb!
♥

blahX3.

2007-01-01T23:54:09Z

so its the new year.
woohoo.
i got drunk last night, so mission accomplished.
& drawn on, fun, oh yes.

i hope everybody stayed good when i left.
anyways, i dont feel good & im sad & bored & dirty.

grrr.

i got a new tat, i love it.

♥

im not scared to dance.

2006-12-16T22:09:22Z

so i got a job. i start monday, working at the red hat society club. it shall be fun. 6am to 2pm 5 days aweek, 9 bucks an hour. not bad. i know i know. & yeah, other than that, i got my cell phone last week, things are good. my 5 months is soon, go me! & buffalo exchange better gimme loads of cash for my shirts! or else. ggrrr. peace.
♥

in retrospect.

2006-11-28T08:02:44Z

okay.
well i hate my job at kohls now, sometimes, so i have an interview with this temp staffing agency called Priority at 11 am tomorrow, in newport beach. wish me luck!im most likely getting a job with them, cause the lady already loves me, over the phone! & i was completely honest with her, so yeah. i still have this terribly rotten cough. ive cut back on my smoking, cause i hack my lungs up every time i take a drag. grrr. anyhoos, so most likely ill be qutting kohls tomorrow, or wednesday. cause im scheduled to work on wednesday, but i cannot miss ANTM, so yeah, thats not chill of them. god damn kohl peeps.& hopefully courtney wants to hang out tomorrow, cause i miss that kidd. [not the BFF, the other one] anyways, i have nobody to talk to online, so im gonna go watch whats on tivo. peace out. ps. my phone, maybe thursday.
♥

shh_biitch @ 2006-11-23T02:27:00

2006-11-23T10:27:26Z

its all my fucking fault & i dont know how to fucking fix it!
im useless in this situation, why is it so hard for me to realize? theres nothing i can do. nothing.

tired.

2006-11-20T08:33:49Z

so i finally went to a meeting & got my 90 days key chain! go me. only 8 days delayed. on another note, i hung out with jayme all day today. i had soooo much fun. hookah wouldve been better if i didnt hack my lungs up, & if the cop didnt harass us before we went inside, weirdness. but thanks for the hat & the dipin dots!!!! we went to old navy, & im gonna make my mom go with me & buy me clothes. like tomorrow. OH speaking of tomorrow, i have my interview with appleone at 3. so hopefully they'll have a J O B for me. if not, than i dk. anyhoos, well stupid places wont take my scratcher cause apparently i scratched the numbers off too hard, bite me. i need that 3 bucks man. okay well im exhausted right now, the meds are kickin in earlier now a days. peace.
ps. im just a bedroom gangsta.
♥

shh_biitch @ 2006-11-12T23:20:00

2006-11-13T07:20:49Z

sooo......im not sure if im liking my job at KOHLS or not. i mean when im there its not that bad, unless its really messy & busy. which is most likely every night. & when im not at work, i hate it. i dk tho, who knows. okay, well im planning on branching out & finding some new friends, cause not to be mean, but im sick of some of the ones i have now. just when they start to impress me, they let me down. i dont know, maybe thats the wrong wording. but anyways, me & jayme are talking now. it feels good. im soo proud of her, for over comming what she did. :] ohhh speaking of proud. my 90 days was yesterday!!!! GO ME!!! [from shit atleast] i must attend a meeting,to get my keychain+chip!!! im so happy for myself. i may drink too much now, but im off of tweak. which is good for me. ohh & i have an interview with APPLEONE on tuesday. i work tomorrow night. 5-close & i dont know the rest of my schedule. my bathroom looks soo cute now. ummm & yeah. peace.
♥

hello.

2006-10-30T09:25:05Z

so i shared at an na meeting tonight. it wasnt that bad. & they were really nice. i missed that part about it. i felt like i belonged, for once, to the group. it was a nice feeling. than harvey & jenn showed up, stayed for a bit, than we bounced. i went got sushi & went home. productive night. well plus some dickheads didnt wanna chill. but whatevas. tomorrow & tuesday are my day offs, so lets party it up. i dont feel good right now. blah. well yeah. peace.
♥

last night.wow.

2006-10-24T20:19:16Z

we're amazing, i know.

be jealous.
♥